I just never seem to feel like I measured enough to fit in anywhere.I was never the most popular girl in school and I don’ tthink I was the most un-popular girl either, because I spent a large portion of going to school, trying not to be noticed, at all.
Even to this day, I tend to have those moments, when I just want to melt in the background and though, there are times, I can be seen with a smile…inside…I feel like the awkward girl who can never belong.
During a meme, while visiting a blog, I stumbled across this quote, that even to this day, still sticks with me: “”We cannot choose whom we will love if we claim to be Christians.” ~Anonymous”
Try this instead: 35 By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.” (John 13:35, New King James Version)
Wow.
The trouble with insecurities and being able to love ourselves and not in a self-center or self-idolization way, is that the enemy can use this, use our doubts, to not only question ourselves, but our Father in Heaven and in the process, our relationships with others, both believers and non-believers.
No one can fix this except our Heavenly Father and in and through Him, ourselves.
Nothing can fill this void until we realize that men’s thoughts and emotions are fickle, but our Father…He is consistant and never changing…He is always there. He always will be.
He lays that on us, as a promise and His word is ALWAYS faithful:
10 For the mountains shall depart
And the hills be removed,
But My kindness shall not depart from you,
Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,”
Says the LORD, who has mercy on you.
(Isaiah 54:10, New King James Version)
People are unreliable, but not Him.
He doesn’t deal with cliques, or emotions or judging our worth by what we wear, how much money we do or do not have, or anything else. He deals in the fact that He loves YOU and ME and EVERYONE.
He loved us so much His gift to us was through His One and Only Son, Jesus Christ, who lived and died, for you and me and everyone.
Not a select few.
Everyone.
So the moms at the local P.T.A. won’t talk to you because you don’t live in the right neighborhood, or you homeschool or you don’t, or maybe they just don’t like you for no other reason, then “just because”.
It’s okay.
Really.
He does.
He loves them equally as He loves you.
“……Loneliness is not relegated only to unbelievers. Ninety-two percent of the Christians attending a recent Bible conference admitted in a survery that feelings of loneliness were a major porblem in their lives. All shared a basic symptom: a sense of despair at feeling unloved and a fear of being unwanted or unaccepted.”
Changes the way you look at others doesn’t it?
Maybe even oneself?
There are days when I just have those days I feel like I just don’t belong. We all do at some point of our lives.
I have to remind myself that I’m not who I think I am and as I read, Chapter 7, it was a reminder that I’m not the only one either.
Lysa points out something that we forget sometimes,..”It’s a choice.”(pg94).
Simple words.
It’s a choice.
We have a choice how we react to others just like they have a choice how to react to us and back to the earlier quote, as Christians, we can’t pick whom we choose to love. We do pick how we choose to act.
Our feelings are a gift from our Father and part of that a gift to choose are we going to act in and with God’s love.
He’s been really challenging and encouraging me in dealing with some of these feelings that I feel I still carry with me; Not wanting to let go of that little girl who never belong, who never seem to be able to find a friend who, well, was just a friend and didn’t just pick and choose what it was about her, that they wanted to be friends with.
That is what makes His word reign above all other words, because it is a constant reminder, He is so much bigger than You and I and anyone, including those who criticize us, who gossip about us, who judge us are.
Because He loves them JUST as much as He loves you and I and sees no division.
He sees a need in you and I and them and anyone to be loved and He steps in and says, I am bigger than that and just as He loves us, He calls us to love each other and ourselves in and through Him and for Him.
I’m not perfect.
I’m imperfect but praise Him for His forgiveness.
I have a long road to go, but when I wonder, will He be there for me, He doesn’t hesistate to remind us that He is:
10 For the mountains shall depart
And the hills be removed,
But My kindness shall not depart from you,
Nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,”
Says the LORD, who has mercy on you.
(Isaiah 54:10, New King James Version)
The funny thing, I was sharing with a friend, that I really felt our Father in Heaven, really just strongly laying on my heart, to follow Him and encouraging me to face some things that have been on the back of mind and challenging me to.
I then came here to check to see if the next “Yes to God” book study was posted and when I saw that it had, and it was for Chapter 7, as I read the chapter and came to these verses:
18 “ Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
19 Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.
20 The beast of the field will honor Me,
The jackals and the ostriches,
Because I give waters in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert,
To give drink to My people, My chosen.
21 This people I have formed for Myself;
They shall declare My praise. (Isaiah 43:18-21, New King James Version)
See.
We serve an Awesome Father.
Drop by Paula at “His Ways“; She is hosting the “Yes to God Tuesdays” for the current book study of,”Becoming More Than a Good Bible Study Girl” by Lysa Terkeurst.
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T.M. First thank you for stopping by and leaving not one but two comments. They are much appreciated. I love what you have to say here. Wasn’t that quote from Robert McGee just eye-opening? Wow. I love how we can pick up on things we miss but others see in each chapter. You emphasized the point of it being a choice. Oh it’s so hard to choose not to be so concerned with where that daisy petal lands. But rather to be focused on pleasing God and being likeable by Him. Yes, He loves us but to be likeable in our character and life…to be pleasing to Him alone. You said “We have a choice how we react to others.” I need to remember that when someone doesn’t react to me with open arms. When I don’t feel a female friends wants or needs me around as much as I desire to be closer friends with her. Which is the current case right now…trying to form a deeper bond with a friend whom I have to always initiate contact.
Can’t wait to see what you have to say next week.
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